Writer’s Wednesday #5
Love Hold My Heart
Loving you is something
I did not chose to do
love tapped me on the shoulder
bound my broken heart to you
Now loving is more painful
than what I had before
and my mended heart is tearing
as you walk out the door
Is there nothing I could do
to bring your love back to me
knowing it’s our togetherness
that brought peace back to me
Please release my aching heart
or hold it more gently to you
because loving you is something
I did not choose to do
written March 1994
updated January 2004
Writer’s Wednesday #4
My Life
As I wander through my life
Not the way it is
But — the way it should be
I see you standing there, waiting for me
Life the way it can be
Happiness and laughter surround us
As we share the world together — as one
You and I in my life
The way it could be, if I had met you
Not him — first
Held you to me, loved you the way
I want to now
To be with you and share with you
That which he already has
You as my life, filling the emptiness within
Using friendship and love to close the gap
I wonder how I made it this far — alone
As I wander through my life
Wanting what can never be
I see you standing here, waiting for me
written February 9, 1994
updated 2004
Writer’s Wednesday #3
All That Glitters
Love is…
As gentle as spring rains
As sharp as a razor
Guides me through life
Opening and closing doors
Blinding me to all
But that to which it leads
Helpless in the grasp
Of that which I can’t control
Life spinning wildly
Tender hearts tearing
A world out of control
And like that which glitters
All that breaks your heart
…is not love
November 2001
Writer’s Wednesday #2
Leaving You
We only want
What we cannot have
So the saying goes
And life goes on
Love passes by
Leaves you standing
On the edge of the road
Passions flare and fade
Friendships die away
I know it’s true
I know they do
But I never thought
With what we are and
What we are not
And all the things
I think I want
That it would be me
Leaving you this way
May ’94
Writer’s Wednesday #1
The Radio Not You Is Loving Me…
The words of love wash across my ears
Sounds that lovingly brush away my tears
Thoughts of you running through my mind
In love’s crazy maze it’s you I always find
How can you be so close at hand
Yet worlds away from me your love stands
Lying here crying for my broken heart
I wonder why I let this love start
Painfully sure what I want can’t be
Knowing you aren’t in love with me
My memories burn with your stolen kiss
I’ll never again be satisfied with his
Then the words of love wash across my ears
Those sounds that lovingly brush away my tears
Remembering back to a simpler time
When me loving you wasn’t a crime
Listening to the words of a forever song
The love in my heart seems to sing along
I stay here waiting on my bed
Radio at my side, earphones on my head
Waiting for what my heart holds so dear
Wondering if you will ever be here
Dreaming of days with bright blue skies
Eyes flooded with tears for all the whys
And then the words of love wash across my ears
With those sounds that lovingly brush away my tears
For one more chance, another forbidden taste
The rest of my life I’m willing to waste
From that first wondering moment until today
Memories unwind in an instant replay
Every thought is of some how, some way
We might be together one wonderful day
The music keeps playing on and on
Each melody soothes and then is gone
As I sit waiting for what can never happen to be
I can plainly hear… and see
The words of love wash across my ears
Sounds that lovingly brush away my tears
The radio not you is loving me
written October 1994
revised June 2000
